Sunshine Song? Yes please!

I have officially found a redeemable factor in working on Sundays.
I still don't like working on what's meant to be a day of rest but when I do have to, I've found a little joy in it.
A few weeks ago Marcy (my boss) threw this huge hissy fit about people getting to work before we open on the weekends (something I've always done but some people just can't seem to do). So I made sure to leave even earlier than usual, bringing with me a packed lunch to eat in the car since it messed with my lunch schedule. I got to the store parking lot and Marcy wasn't even there so instead of parking in my spot and waiting like a creeper, I drove down to the park just behind the store and had myself a little pick nick. It was so relaxing and such a nice day. So I've decided that I'll be doing that every Sunday that I have to work. I'll sit in my car when it's too cold or raining. But I enjoyed the nice day even if the park brought back memories I've been trying to repress. Not because they're bad or painful memories at all. Simply because it would make life so much harder to remember them.
Monday I got my acceptance letter to SU! It came in this wonderfully gold folder. It's so pretty and clean and wonderful, just how I expected it. Of course the first thing I did after I opened it and called everyone was go to the campus store website and order a buttload of merchandise! Part of my Christmas present :) So, it's safe to say that I'm officially a pirate! Such a good ring to it, huh? And I got scholarship money which of course my parents are happy about.
Tuesday two amazing things came out: Up, and Jason Mraz's Beautiful Mess. I haven't seen Up since the theaters and I want to watch it with my mom so I've been putting that one off but it's definitely sitting on my bed wishing I would put it in. But I did watch Jason. It's a dvd of his concert in Chicago but the funny thing is that it's the exact line up of songs that he played when he was here so it was like i was rewatching the concert I'd already attended. IT WAS AMAZING. I love him so much, you have no idea. He is such an incredible artist. If I ever met Jason Mraz, I would marry him on the spot, no questions asked...if he asked me. Such an awesome guy...
Wednesday has been good. We watched a few scenes from Grease in Bible today and I have definitely had the song stuck in my head ALL DAY. But it was nice to take a break from discussing to watch something that definitely isn't "faith west approved."
The week ahead?
Tomorrow mom and I are heading to Charming Charlie's after school...just because ;)
Friday...I don't have plans. I better end up doing something fun though.
Saturday I work all day and then I'm headed to the play off game. We're district champs and we beat beaumont and supposedly we'll beat these guys...STATE BOUND BABY!
Sunday...I think I work Sunday...which means the park!

Only eight more days until I see my best friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fairy Tale, Smairy Fail

I don't know what I'm doing.
I think I do, but I don't.
I think so often we decide we can fight our own battles alone when we really need help. I'm tired of fighting alone.

I'm in one of those moods where I wish I could will things into existence. I wish they would talk to me, I wish I were accepted to SU already, I wish life were easier...

But if life were easier, there would be no point.

More than anything, I just want to go to college, find a man who will love me and not stop loving me, travel the world, and live happily ever after.
Do fairy tales exist only to dangle dreams in front of girls and then yank them away?
Paramore: Brick by brick lyrics

Well she lives in the fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of a world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her

The angles are all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies
Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da

So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck 12

Well make sure to build your home brick by boring brick
or the wolf's gonna blow it down
Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Woah, woah.

Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic

If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it

But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Or even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da...

Celebration, Pitty Parties, and Self Control

I got a B in precal! Don't know how I managed it, but I have an 81 on my report card! All I know is that it was totally God and not me. I know I couldn't have done that on my own...
Also, Best Friend is coming home on Friday to make t shirts for the New Moon midnight premier!! Get excited! I want to reread the book but since New Moon is the most sad of the four and considering what happened two months ago, it may not be the best idea. Hysterics probably wouldn't be convenient.
There's not much else to report except that I can't tell you enough how amazing paramore's cd is.
Also, William is slowly being erased from my list. It was never a list but that's the only metaphor I could think of while running on this much sleep. (long night studying for apgov test) It's not that I like him it's that I could like him but I know that it wouldn't be fair to either of us for me to be that way and I think for the first time in almost 18 years now I'm beginning to control myself. Hopefully. No more falling blindly. Look how that turned out.
I miss having someone to talk to that wanted to talk to me back. That part was nice. And having someone to take care of too.
Ok. I need to stop.
The End.
Also, Ainsley is six months old today!!!

Turtles are Overrated.

Life's good. Just sayin.
Last night I had this really intense moment with my Jesus. He's all I need and I don't know why so often that's not good enough for me. But I'm determined to keep my eyes on him this year because I know that He knows the desires of my heart and He's the only one that can make them possible. I feel like I'm turning over a new leaf in my life and starting anew.

MY GOD IS SOOOO GREAT

even when I don't deserve it He still blesses me like crazy.

On another note, if you have ten bucks laying around, Paramore's new album is classic. LOVE them.

Also, Carolyn managed to make business casual into jeans and a teeshirt today. She wins at life.