Modern Day Jonah

I think I lost my head this week. To think that I even had a chance with that guy is ridiculous. I lost sight of my goal already and I've only been single for two months now, what the heck was I thinking? Can I not have guy friends without thinking it's something more?
My life is a mess. God, come help me clean!!!
I think I just keep loosing sight of God. I get close, and then back up, get close and back up. Maybe that's normal. After all, I'm a sinner and sin separates us from God's love. Or maybe I'm just a huge idiot.
According to my Pre Cal grade, it's the second one.
I cried in class again today. That makes three classes in a row.
I want to back up time to a certain part of Saturday night and stay there.
Or I just want to go to an all girls school and become a nun. I think I'll do that.
C won't leave me alone. STILL.
And W is either in a bad mood, or is repelled. I wouldn't be surprised by either. I'm giving up for a week.
If I guy wants me, he'll act like he wants me. I'm glad I read He's just NOT that into you. I didn't think any of it would ever apply to me. I thought I would never have to date again. Yet, here I am.
I can't wait till Best Friend comes home! She can't even spend the night but I'll just be happy to hang with her! I need a constant in my life.
More and more today I realized how often I try to back away from what God wants me to do. And then He shows me that I'm not doing what He wants and I try to follow His path and then just end up like Jonah.
Where's my fish?

Turtles are Overrated.

Life's good. Just sayin.
Last night I had this really intense moment with my Jesus. He's all I need and I don't know why so often that's not good enough for me. But I'm determined to keep my eyes on him this year because I know that He knows the desires of my heart and He's the only one that can make them possible. I feel like I'm turning over a new leaf in my life and starting anew.

MY GOD IS SOOOO GREAT

even when I don't deserve it He still blesses me like crazy.

On another note, if you have ten bucks laying around, Paramore's new album is classic. LOVE them.

Also, Carolyn managed to make business casual into jeans and a teeshirt today. She wins at life.